rei y reina

i met you in my dreams. the air is milky and foggy and i feel giggly. but you take my hand under a sky that is half lightning and half blue. eres mi cielo. at first we are in a garden or park, outside. then i am suddenly small enough to tiptoe across your eyelashes. when i see the canyon of your face below, i see your mouth. that fold of intention that shows me nothing. i am holding your hand again, wavering between happiness and stone cold sobriety. we are in a field. my hair is so long and

your hands are in it, twisting curls that stay in place and my hands are on your back, touching muscles and moving up to your face. im kissing both your eyelids and i taste something wet. my hands feel soft and then yours they have met. i can feel your weight against my own. at that moment your whispering something i would never have known. i want to say stop because it feels too good, but the rhythm of your motion makes me know i never could. when i look for your eyes from the distance im sitting, they look too far away and much too admitting. there is a pang of guilt silenced by a smile. youre taking my hand again and we're running for miles. your legs are pumping in front of me with the effort of your gait, i have the sudden urge to make us both late. releasing your hand i stop and look back and your form disappears like a train down the tracks. im alone in the fog and my heart is beginning to crumble, but from a far distant place i can hear a small rumble. your voice finds me wiping away tears that dry in the wind. to be unable to find you would be to have sinned. i search under rocks that are really just fog and i search under something that looks like a log. but i just keep hearing the words in the air, te amo mi reina and i can see your deep stare. i hope that i find you in my arms when i wake, but all i see is an empty lake. i try to surface to consciousness again, but youre calling my name and telling me ven. im stuck in a dream that is changing my height where im walking on eyelashes and flying like a kite. when my eyes finally open im in my warm bed, morning is here and sleeps colored my cheeks red. theres a light on my pillow where the sun shines and my heart sinks in my chest because the covers are just lines. they show me the emptiness of the day, ive left you in the dream unaware you're mi rei.